♫ I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes ♪

I don't think so much about whats going to happen. I never plan much of anything. Looking back on my life now I can totally see where that was a major issue. Life is boring... until you're having fun. I think that because I started working at a young age, I'll always carry that trait with me. These past 6 months of not working have been HELL for me. I can gladly admit that. I'm a worker bee, always and forever. My problem was obviously that I didn't care. I was at a point in my life where all I wanted was to be left alone so I could die. Emo, depressing shit I know, but thats how I felt.

I think that the lingering feelings are part of our growth. Like we need to feel them to know that everything's going to be okay. Not everybody's the same though and I won't be speaking for everybody in that sense.

I had a job interview today so I really hope it went well. I'm in desperate need for my normal back.