Ello!!

I just finished reading one of my all time favorite books and thought I would share some of the books quotes with you all! You may have heard of them (:

So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be..

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.



"I hate you." "I love you."

I turned around and walked to my room and closed my door and put my head under my pillow and let the quiet put things where they are supposed to be.

This moment will just be another story someday.

I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other.

[we accept the love we think we deserve]

I think it was the first time in my life I ever felt like I looked "good". Do you know what I mean? That nice feeling when you look in the mirror, and your hair's right for the first time in your life? I don't think we should base so much on weight, muscles, and a good hair day, but when it happens, it's nice. It really is.

It's kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. And it gets to a point where none of it seems real.

I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.

things change. And friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody.

And I guess I realized at that moment that I really did love her. Because there was nothing to gain, and that didn't matter.

You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things.

You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.


So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.


If you've never read the book, seriously pick it up. Its completely moving and inspirational for all!

Same old song and dance ♫

Hola! Bonjour... Hello.. Hi.. whats up? Que pasa? All that other stuff... How you people be? Basically I've been on hiatus from most of the internet. Its honestly taken me about a full week to get back to normal after only a 4 day vaca lol
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Some of you already know this, new people as well as non frequent peeps don't. I'm meeting with a publisher in hopes of getting a book published. At this point I don't care if its an actual novel or a book of poetry, short stories ect... as long as its a book with my name on it. Does that sound bad? Well I had started one after my brother died called "Being Cinderella" We had a good run and I may not completely give up on it yet but when my computer crashed, I lost a good amount of it. Weeks of trying to recover what wasn't written on paper(I always do drafts on paper first) I'm at a stand still. I want to say I finished it, regardless if its just for my own knowing that I set my mind on something so heavy and finished it. I just don't know if I can. Those who know me, know... I suffer from occasional ADD... I get sidetracked, procrastinate and than get angry haha. I just, I don't finish anything, hardly ever... and because one isn't enough, I'm working on a second novel attempt.

Wanna hear about it? Of course you don't, but here goes: I had a life changing epiphany in a dream a few weeks ago. Its something that's never hit me until the "dream" because I thought I had closed the door on that genre of writing for a while now. All the writers workshops and school hours put in and I actually feel silly having not even attempted such a thing before now. Sci Fi|Fantasy. It was where I shined in the past and just thinking about it gives me goosebumps. So to back up this "epiphany" I had, I dug deep into the past. Writing, RP, Writing, College, High School, Junior High, my invisible friend with special powers back in the 3rd grade[you can laugh - his name was Charlie] anyway for me, how I "know" I have something is when even after all that I still feel just as passionate about it after it was replanted in my mind. I should have been writing this all along. Old muse are being reborn and more depth than ever will be added on. I feel 100% in writing this. I do.

Long story short - because I did have a point. Being Cinderella is more of a dark comedy, humour, deep kind of self help novel. The story of Abby and Landon? Thats pretty special. I created them and I say everybody gets a chance to come alive.

To those who have "held my hand" in writing Being Cinderella, you have my word and promise that I will do what I promised when I started this story. I'll finish it and I'll make not only myself and my brother proud, but you guys as well. Its incredible as to how many people have supported me in writing "BC" and I hope you follow me along the journey of this new project.

xoxo

By The Book

My earliest memory with books can be dated back to the second grade. It’s strange when I look back because I fell in love with words, much earlier than that. I remember being in the second grade. I was blessed with Miss Novak as my teacher for the second time in my family history. When asked who got me into books and my passion of writing period, I always give her partial credit. She was given to me to inspire, to teach, to love.

It was the second grade and I had stayed after school with a few other students and my teacher, Miss Novak had taken us to the library and than to dinner. It was my first time in a public library, so you can imagine how that was for me. And if you can’t, allow me to set the scene. I was 6 years old and books for me, was like cake for fat kids. I just couldn’t get enough. I remember coming home with three bags full of books and my mom yelling that I had so many. She didn’t think there was a way I’d read so many, in addition to losing them.

Can you believe that I read every book? I remember taking them back late and all the conversation afterwards about them. Like I said, I was addicted; mostly to the stories, the characters and the safeness I felt when I was enthralled inside of them.

Most of my life can be summed up by 5 of my favorite books, all of which I recommend to my readers. The first being ‘Inkheart’ by Cornelia Funke. I first read Inkheart in 2005 and I was hesitant at first because at first glance this book seems like it’s purely children based. But that’s not always the case in point with books. I don’t think I need to tell you how many adults are fans of Harry Potter over their children do I? Anyway Inkheart has everything from Fantasy, Action, Murder, Mystery, Love, Laughter and as often as we’re in denial of a lesson.

The Second Book in my 5 would be “A Density of Souls” by Christopher Rice. Now before I go into how I feel about the book, I’d like to express my love for the man that wrote the book. Being a huge fan of Anne Rice, I was expecting a lot and you guys, he delivers! Christopher Rice is the author of 5 books (All of which I own, and have on pre-order hah) A Density of Souls was scary for me. When I read it, I could relate to every single character. Growing up I knew what it was like to be the outcast, the popular girl, the asshole, ect. What I related most about this book though was the fact that every single one of these characters had skeletons in their closet, which we as human beings can attest to. It’s a deep read for the avid mind.

Coming in third on my list would have to be, The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova. Now before I get into the book, I just want it to be known that I am a HUGE Anne Rice fan. Bram Stoker as well. Fuck Twilight because I’ve read what REAL vampires are like in 3 authors alone. I can never be a fan of a vampire that sparkles in the sunlight. Back to our subject on hand though, The Historian is a large book. The story itself was amazing to me, however what captivated me the most was the style it was written. It’s very Gothic, Victorian, travelogue type of book. It’s realistic and kept me on the edge of my seat until I had finished it.

Fourth in my book list is a pure horror guru! If you want to scare the shit out of someone, tell them to read a Bentley Little Book! So this is techniqually cheating because I’m not listing a book, but rather the mind behind the madness! I’m still recovering from books like The Vanishing, Dominion, The House, Guests and The Town! I’m a big fan of Stephen King when it comes to horror writing, but Bentley Little will give the strongest man nightmares, trust me on this!!

The final book on our list is my all time favorite books and current “re-obsessions” (Yeah, I admitted it.) Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass. Both written by Lewis Carroll. Although I am a big fan of Tim Burton’s recent movie adaption, to read the book and than watch the movie, two completely different things. The stories that are told in both Adventures and Looking Glass are life lessons, and they teach you things as a child and as an adult. They tell you why it’s important to know where you’re going. To know yourself, to believe in yourself. I learned through Alice that sometimes taking your own advice is the best advice! To stand up for yourself and others doesn’t make you a bully, it makes you wise.

So there you have it, 5 books (and then-some) that I will never tire of, that inspire me to be a better writer today and tomorrow. Whether it be a travel through time, a sexy deep secret, falling in love, solving a mystery or fighting a galactic war; books are the only thing that will never fail you.

Two Quotes from Inkheart that I will never forget, and use as inspiration for my writing:

“Books are adventure. They contain murder and mayhem and passion. They love anyone who opens them.”

"Books have to be heavy, because they carry the whole world with them"